Whenever I feel like I'm not enough
I always wish I could will myself into a different way of being
Replace part of my personality with something new
Jump into someone else's body
Or maybe just will myself away
Maybe the issue is with scenery
Feeling displaced with where trying to build a home
Perpetually roaming, longing for what seems unattainable--
A deep, sought after comfort
Which seems like a myth, yet we all try anyway
I feel the lust in my lungs when my chest seizes
The burdened breaths and automated, unintentional heavy sighs
Always finding myself staring off
Having zero thoughts, having twenty- all at once
I'm juggling between what seems logical
And what is most certainly an annoying undercurrent of paranoia
Of course I know best when I'm being ridiculous
I take it harshly and in absolutes, instead of in half truths
I wear them as branding of my misgivings
And so I can be open and warm until I remember then try to hide myself away
Cover up my skin--all until the false confidence begins again
I never thought I was this insecure, but maybe I am
But maybe this is normal, maybe this is everyone
Hard to tell when we're all trying so hard to pretend otherwise