Current situation:

Trying to drown out the drama surrounding my personal life
By surrounding myself with the drama of the impeachment hearings
Stuck in a whirlwind all day of trying to not feel responsible for other people's actions
But I can't help but feel involved in this not very unique play

Luckily, a reprieve when my boss swings through my office
After dodging all day the tasks we needed to address
But he arrives with what he describes as an expensive bottle of wine--
Corked on Saturday (but, "should still be good," supposedly)

It's very opportune, at this moment, while I'm on the edge
I promise myself not to indulge for the wrong reasons, but this seems appropriate
I also long so much to see her, as she seems like the one good thing at present
But I caution myself to not lean too heavily, or greedily

It's never good to rely on one source of happiness, I remind myself
So tonight I will bowl and let off steam in the manner of hurling 10 lbs, 18 mph
And again tomorrow, the distraction of music as rehearsal--
It's easier to forget when there are others relying on me for things

I guess it is human that I care more when others are involved

I don't know if I'm strong enough to appease everyone in this situation

I don't know if I will give anyone what they need if they're at odds with each other

I don't know if I will come out of this without losing something, myself